🔒 dear future hazel :)
December 31st, 2019
Private Blog.
i know i literally have a diary in my room already but i kinda wanted to leave one thing here too. nobody knows about this page so i think its okay. if i ever read this again years later then... hi future me!! :)
i hope things worked out. that's kinda all i really want.
i hope dad is doing okay. i hope he's taking breaks sometimes instead of pretending he doesn't need them. i should probably remind him more because he always says he's "fine" even when he's obviously tired.
i hope i'm still baking. maybe i'm actually good at it now instead of burning things every other weekend haha.
i hope i still like games. i wonder if my 3DS will even work anymore when i'm older?? maybe there'll be a million new animal crossing games by then. i hope maple is still my favourite villager because i dont think thats ever gonna change ♡
i hope lucy, naomi and sophie are still around too. i know everyone says friend groups drift apart after school and that makes me really sad to think about. i dont want us to become those people who only say "we should hang out sometime!!" and then never actually do.
okay… this part is EXTRA private.
if future me is reading this and somehow forgot…
im dating clover now. we've been together for a little while. please dont tell anyone because i promised i wouldnt. even writing it here makes me nervous.
sometimes i wish i could tell everyone because i really like talking about her, but she gets scared whenever people start paying attention to us. i dont really understand everything she's worried about yet, but i know she has her reasons. i love her, so i want to respect that.
i hope she knows i dont mind keeping it a secret. i just hope one day she wont feel like she has to hide anymore.
i hope...
i hope we're still together.
that feels really embarrassing to write. but if this is only for future me then i guess it doesnt matter.
i really really hope we're still together. i hope she still smiles the way she does when she thinks nobody is looking. i hope she's happier. i hope i'm someone she still feels safe around.
and if somehow we arent...
i hope she's okay anyway.
wow this got emotional. moving on!!
i hope i still go to the library all the time.
i hope i still stop to look at birds even if im in a hurry.
i hope i never decide baking is "cringe" or something because adults always seem like they stop having hobbies and i think thats sad.
i hope i still get excited for autumn.
i hope i dont become mean.
i hope i dont stop believing people can be kind.
i hope i dont stop making things just because nobody sees them.
i hope future me is happy. even if life turned out really different than i expected.
thats all i think.
goodnight future hazel.
please take care of yourself for me.
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